Wednesday, September 22, 2010
God's favor & human perspective
Psalm 5:12 "For it is You who blesses the righteous person, O Lord, You surround them with favor as with a shield."
I have a dear friend, who is a Christian. However, she really struggles with how God could love her. When she hears verses like, For God so loved the world..." she believes that it is true, except He doesn't love her. She feels unlovable.
One reason for this is because she had been praying for God to bring her a guy who she could love and be loved by. Soon afterward, it seemed that God brought a guy into her life (maybe He did, I dunno). Anyhow, things got a bit...let's say outside God's best for an unmarried couple, so they eventually broke up. Although she loved & had affection for him, she still felt a bit dirty for what she had done. Which helped her to eventually convince herself that she was dirty, and that God couldn't love her. Because she had violated the very thing He said not to do & because she had also violated herself.
Now she is growing in bitterness in God because God took the guy (like Jonah & the plant), and she is mad that God doesn't love her (which God never said, but she believes non-the-less).
Let me offer a different angle on this whole thing, in light of this verse I did for devotions this morning-"For it is You who blesses the righteous person, O Lord, You surround them with favor as with a shield."
I believe that God loves & is affectionate toward this friend, because she is a Christian and she has not yet hardened her heart toward God. I believe that God broke them up because they were unable to have an honorable relationship, so God was SHIELDING her (and probably him) from more trouble. He did that BECAUSE He loves her. I wish that she was able to understand this, but at this point she will not listen to anyone, and is not able to hear. Plus, I am afraid to pry.